I Surrendered - Squandered.

Heck! I am not busy. Otherwise, I am so bored. Oh yes, hello boredom.

Err. I squander a lot of things. Things that can be percept and not perceptible. And I know that I should cope up with it. Wala naman akong magagawa eh, wala kang magagawa. And it will be damn hard to face this things but you will get used to it. If you can dexteriorate this kind of oh-not-so-simple things and oh-not-so-damn-right situations, you will be awarded with the Best Actor/Actress in a real life situation. And I could hear the growling of others which it seems they reacted.

Anyways, get a life! Don't mind others if they opposed to.
But then again, you seemed not so happy with the given award to you. I know a lot of things you sacrificed to get this or should I say wasted?

Wasted Money.
Yes. I know people otherwise, humans are easily get tempted when it comes to money. Humans are rational beings: they have their own freewill and intellect. And this two important characteristics are little by little getting absorbed by the root of all evil. Money.
I know that we are not perfect but humans as we are, you are getting absurd if you are trying or masking to be perfect. And I know the fact that our global crisis experiencing today as financial other than global warming. And this sealed with the government corruption that made of one hundred percent papyrus are influencing the innocent minds and like a leeches sipped the whole of you. And here am I, sitting in my armchair. Waiting for nothing. Nothing.

Wasted Time.
I sometimes wish that my life can be a movie stored in a rare compact disk where you can play it on your gigantic flat screen television and you can stop it, forward it, replay it. And the headmaster is the movie reviewer criticizing your natural directed movie.
But it seems that you can't hold the glass hour everyday. There will be time that you didn't even know that tomorrow is your last day on this earth. You didn't even know that you will be in love with someone. You didn't even know that you will be sick. You didn't even know that you will meet somebody who can spend with the rest of your life. You didn't even know that you will be lucky or unlucky. You didn't even know that you are having an accident. And you didn't even know that you are not a human anymore just a soul, roaming around with nothing. Finding a friend named Casper. Or even search for justice. Freaky. It is way too unpredictable. Clueless. Biohazard.
Every tick-tock you hear is important. It is priceless. And you could answer it that why time is gold. Seems superficial. And I dissipated it. Hours by hours. Minutes by minutes. Seconds by seconds. And every single day is almost important to accomplish your mission by the momentum of a single agenda. But, wala akong masisisi. Although mayroong kirot sa damdamin that kasalanan niya or kasalanan ng iba why I suffered in waiting for clueless limbo.

Wasted Expectations.
Always look forward but straightforward.
I regret it why I should expect more this time. A lot of good expectations wasted. And ended up with the unexpected bad flying saucer hit you almost many times. Poor little thing. It is unfair for you to suffer. And I know that all of us in this world knows that may nanlalamang at may nilalamangan. Yes, I agreed. I should not expect more. I should not hope for something. Remember that promises are always meant to be broken. You should do it before you mean that promise okay? No asking for more.

Wasted Prayers.
I pray to God everyday. And I know that prayer is the most dynamic way to contact God. To easily connect with God. To easily send a message with God with unlimited properties and infinite settings. Prayers are sacred. You can talk with God with different emotions whether you are angry, sad, happy or anything under the sun. But I know that life is like a ball. In a simple explanation, ball is bouncy. It can be bounce up or down and back or forth. It where stated our gulong ng palad is. And I know that there are sometimes prayers can't be answered by this time and soon can be justify.

Wasted Dreams.
I am walking upstairs and I can't easily catch up whether I should step on the wet surface of the floor or just ignore it and walk to the another step which kakaligtaan mo na lamang. We are surrounded with doubts. Always have a question mark in our heads and soon can be crashed up with an exclamation point. We are afraid to do that. And afraid are way too risky. All of us have problems. It is the important ingredient where you can find out that your life seems more meanigful to you. Enlightened me by that. Hoping it deserves to me after all.
I doubt a lot of things. And I didn't even know how to mingle with it. All I know that I am scared. Scared of doing something that you will regret it for the rest of your life. But I can't help it. Having doubts is like my hobby. And you know that it is too way unfashionable for the people near at you. And it is not a gift nor a present. It is just a mail where you hardly open it.



Then I saw my kiddo reflected on a shattered glass. The way it dress, the way it talks and the way it acts.
I hope that someday Masquerain will soon to be shown up and touch my hand under the rain falls.

That Troublemaker.

Tick-tock-tick-tock..

What's the matter dear? Have you seen the clock?
It's alarming, and you didn't want to face it up. Buzz off!

Been asleep for next few hours. Gimme some more time dear and I'm gonna hook it up.
Yes. I can finally give it up to the ring master what's the best for me. And I surrender it without any intensions that it could change my mind. Serious trouble ahead.
Last mission, need to accomplish this time. Oh I need time.

The angel without any halo keeps bugging at me. Buzz it off!
I need more time. Please leave me alone dear.
That stupid cuddly pillow wants to hug me. And I can't breath enormously. Please stop it!

Honestly, I didn't enjoy my dreams. Boring. Nonsense.
All I could do is sleep. Like taking up some pill and some depressants.
And I could enjoy my sickness at the same time. At the same place. In my little sanctuary.
I could embrace my problems and give it with a big warm hug. Thank you for your hospitality. We can't abhor the fact that it deserves to you a lot.


Then the cellphone beeps.
Got the message received.
"We're here! We almost got there.."

Don't Forget

Every once in a while you have to bite your lip and admit that you were wrong..

"But somewhere we went wrong. Our love is like a song, but you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us."

..and you just realized that it's OVER. :'(

I Rock You!

All of us have our own dreams. Have our own goals. Our own desire. When we grow up, we want to be something. Something to be proud of. Something to show off in a whole wide world with our own kakayahan and talento. We want to be more, like with ourselves. We just want to be with who we are. By following our goals and dreams, walking on the stairs and illuminating ourselves with your own spotlight. But what if your dream is to be like a rockstar? Or like a Hannah Monatana role model and even Jonas Brothers likey-likey? Enough said about that. HAHAHA:]]

Then, I just fathom the lyrics of a song by Nickelback entitled "Rockstar". Like in a lyrics said, "I wanna be a rockstar. blah-blah-blah..". As I read a column in a magazine, I enjoyed reading it about a rockstar-wannabe and I just want it to share with you guys about it. So here it is.

You know you're a freakin' rockstar when you..

Always say "Talk to my manager".
Even to your closest friends. Often it turns out that your manager is infinitely more famous than you are.

Show up late for anything -- especially during concerts, rehearsals, and recording sessions.
And in the event you do, the industrial-strength smell of alcohol suddenly pervades the studio.

You release an album of electronic remixes.
By the leading DJs in the industry. Never mind if no one actually heard your songs in the original versions.

You suddenly adopt a one-word alias.
Because "Procopio Amadeus Corcolon, Jr." just doesn't rock the same way as "Edge," "Sky," or "Flash 24."

Begin hitting the gym and dieting.
'Cause you'll be peeling off your shirt after the fifth song.

You start avoiding the huge crowds.
For fear of being mobbed for photo-oops and autographs. That's why part of our band's tech rider stipulates for a battery of bodyguards. Or, like one semi-famous rock chick in the '90s, was reported going to Megamall wearing a disguise. Never mind if only a total of ten people knew who she was-even with a mask of.

You can't be made to wait.
Backstage, especially with.. eww, less famous bands. So the organizers would just call you at your van (rented, of course) 2-3 minutes before you're on. If possible, you can't even bothered to walk, so the van would squeeze into the backstage prod area, sending people frantically pushing aside gigantic apple boxes, guitar cases, bags, and monobloc chairs.

You begin hangout with artistas, socialites, models, and designers.
'Cause you know, like, they're cool and they're the only ones who understand your created temperament. But can never be trusted.

Every time you raise your arms the crowd goes nuts.
You twirl the mike stand, you stand on top of speakers and amplifiers, you jump, and you stage-dive when the crowd starts pulling.

You start your own charity.
Because you are naturally altruistic and you want to use your celebrity to make the world a better place. Like, yah, dude. Let's like, help the mahirap people naman and the youth because, dude, they're the future of our bansa...

You start appearing on 'The Buzz'.
Perhaps via rumors of romantic dalliances with a certain starlet. And charmingly you say,
"Friends lang po kami..." :)

Next year you'll be in rehab.
But don't worry, you'll stage a big comeback-at Zirkoh bar, as opening act for the gay standup comedian.

Let's face it. It is a reality guys. So, if you want to have the best of both worlds, just always be take your feet on the ground and never lalaki ang ulo. And remember, spotlights are reversible.

No More Keroppi

Did you know that frogs are now endagered species? An affliction has been besetting frogs all over the world and biologists say that this has something to do with global warming. However at this stage, researchers still can't place it all in one solid explanation. One thing is for sure, frogs are dying globally and in massive numbers at that.

Do you remember the time when you could hear frogs croaking in unison? We never stopped to think about it, but sure enough we no longer hear those phenomenal frog conciertos anymore. As early as 1996, the Sierra Nevada frogs were noticed to be decreasing in numbers. Whereas before, they croaked and leaped in abundance both in the low and high of the Sierra Nevada ranges, the last survey in 1999 came up with only 2 Sierra frogs remaining.

In 2003, Conservationsts sued the Fish and Wildlife Services for refusing to list the frogs under the Endangered Species Protection program. They wanted to give the frogs protection from several factors they considered as detrimental to the frog's existence, namely: grazing, recreation, dams and water diversion, roads and predation. They scored a victory in 2006 when the Federal judge ordered the Fish and Wildlife Services to list the Yellow-legged frog and the Yosemite toad under the Endangered Species Protection program. So they thought the problem will be kept under control.

Recent developments however showed that frogs all over the world are dying and in massive numbers including those in tropical countries. What the Sierra Nevada folks thought as an isolated case was happening globally. That's the reason we no longer hear the "blidits" and the croaks nor see them hop-hop- hopping along the road anymore as we pass by the mountainsides. In fact, can you remember those times when you saw bodies of frogs on the roads obviously victims of hit and run incidents?

Scientists have now devoted their time in researching for answers and to find out what seems to be wiping out these frogs on the face of the Earth. Actually, it's no longer just a matter of frogs dying, the issue is now about biodiversity - where every living thing, even in the minutest of form is essential to maintain a balanced ecology.

They have considered global warming and the rise in temperatures. They have connected it to a certain fungus but this fungus was supposed to have been extinct a long time ago. Scientists are still baffled while frogs continue to die. If the next generation ever gets to read about the frog prince, kids in the future will never get to see a real frog and understand why the princess refused to kiss it.

New Moon Updates

Okay guys. Since I catch up in the internet about the New Moon Movie, they start filming again and I don't know who are the other cast members because the production cannot spill it out. It makes me excited. But one thing's for sure that Dakota Fanning is played as Jane in one of the Volturi characters.

Now here's something to feast on.
Pictures have surfaced of Robert Pattinson & Co. on the Vancouver set of New Moon, the highly anticipated (an understatement, if there ever was one) sequel to Twilight.
Of course, just the sight of a pale-faced Rob Pattz, Kristen Stewart, Taylor Lautner (still in a wig!) and Nikki Reed all in character and back in action definitely has us over the.. well, you know.
So sink your teeth into more after the jump!

P.S. Don't worry about containing your excitement. We certainly aren't!

A Child's Love

Love's unconditional. :) A must read:

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?' The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think.


'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'
Karl - age 5

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'
Bobby - age 7

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'
Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'
Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'
Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'
Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'
Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'
Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry.'

If U Seek Amy

Because you can never have too much 'Amy.'

Sleeping Beauty

"And I am waiting for you hoping that your feelings would be the same for me. I am waiting here in vain. Can't recognize where I was and what am I doing here? I still care for you. I still miss you. And I stay in love with you.

Please come back to me my love. I'll do everything you need. You are one in a million. You are one of a kind. I have no strength to be with you. I am weak. Please support me and guide me to fill up the missing pieces of your heart. Let me complete it with no pretensions and no promises but with full sincerity and faithfully desire.

I can see through your eyes that you really needs me. Your passion of love for me makes it more intense to kiss me so that I have a strength to awake now and let the love begins between us.

But all of a sudden, things would never be the same between us.
People change. Feelings change. And everybody changes.

And I can hear it through my ear the dirge deep from within.
But I still love you, since we were both young when I first saw you.."

-Princess Aurora

Sketchy Beginnings

I've been depressed lately, so..

.. I draw. *smirks

Erase me backward, Refresh me forward.

"I am sooo one hundred and one percent better than you are."
Very well said. Very well. Whew! I nearly killed it. My other side really speaks to me a lot. It's way better than before. And I can't signing out of it, I can't. It's just that I don't know how to deal with it but from time to time it makes dexterous. (Sounds really weird. Oh I'm starting to be psychotic. Scared.)

Hallucinations? Yep, it can be. But don't judge me if I have sometimes acting really weird about this time guys. Oh c'mon give me break! I just need a strength. To go up on my bed and walk downstairs and sit on a computer table and it just sounds like click-click-click.

Talking about myself. I really know how to figure it out. It's just my therapy. I need to focus all about myself. Just give some credits to yourself okay?
It sounds really weird but, try to talk to yourself in front of the mirror. Talk to yourself. Take some questions about yourself. And answer it honestly and faithfully. Then, don't forget to exhale and inhale properly when you are doing that. Nevermind if you're opposed to. But based on the top psychological studies where I research on the internet, it really makes you feel better (eventhough it's acting really weirdo thingie.) But it really helps. Just try some. :)
It would affect to decrease the crazy people out there. Literally.

And this actions would make you feel comfortable and live yourself with the big grin on your face. That is you can make it! Oh Yes you can!
So stay positive. Be optimistic. Just go with the flow of life and try to the rollercoaster ticket which you are available to ride upon. It makes sense. It's just did.

So for now, I am okay now. I am trying to reconcile the memories that it happened in my life since I was just a tiny little monster before. And trying to forget the past where it just have supposed to. But I think it would probably be able to happen in amnesia. But just don't forget about it. Just reconcile. And exile the oh-so-what-the bad memoirs which it just paroxysm you. Just erase it. Erase in epoch. Then there is no chagrin about that.

Let things happen in your life. Just refresh your mind. And restart again. Don't be afraid. Let it be. Life is so unpredictable. It's so mysterious. The future beholds the entire world would let it happen in time. In perfect time. Just believe up there that things will be better. We are guided and blessed. Wink! :)

And then, I can hear it again.
"..and I am sooo one hundred and one percent luckier than you are."