And I can't wait this July. Gotta save money now! :)
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
Deep Fried Potatoes
Something's bugging me.
I asked myself if people in Asia were less decisive than people in the West. "I think I'm decisive," I admitted. "But I'm not really sure." I just noticed Western ways of thinking clearly seperated opposing forces such as good and evil, while Eastern ways of thinking tried to balance them in a yin ang yang fashion.
That thinking-green-analysis intrigued me. That very morning I'd given a talk to my little cousins and asked them to give me their version of the story of creation. (Sounds like I'm having a teaching theology here.) And the youngsters (of course, also me!) carefully balanced the roles of God and the Devil. We ended up solving a lot of mysteries. (Yeah, they're having a lot of fun about that.)
Now most people know the tale of what God did in his first seven days, but after talking to young people (my cousins), living here in Asia (the Philippines), I can now exclusively reveal what the Devil was up to that first week.
In the beginning God created heaven and earth. And earth was without form and void.
And God made a circular light in the heavens, and He called it the Sun. And God saw that the light was good.
And the Devil made a smaller light, rectangular in shape, and he called it TV. And the Devil saw that the light was bad.
And God made springs which came out of the ground, oozing fountains of pure, fresh water. And God saw that the water was good.
And the Devil invented fizzy drinks. And saw that the fizzy drinks were bad.
And God said, Let the earth bring forth vegetables, and the herb of the field, that the children may grow up healthy. And it was so.
And the devil said, Let there be deep fried potatoes.
And God said, Let the waters bring forth 10,000 varieties of fish, that they may provide sustenance for the children.
And the Devil arranged that the fish be smothered in batter, deep fried, and served with deep fried potatoes.
And God created the cattle of the field, and said, Behold, I have given you every living creature that moved; to you it shall be for meat.
And the Devil showed how the meat could be minced and turned into burgers, and suggested that it be always served with deep fried potatoes.
And on the seventh day God rested and asked that his children rest too, and use the day to contemplate the wonders of creation.
And the Devil created the all-day brunch, cartoon TV channels, and Sunday newspapers, filled with articles about celebrities, that the minds of the children be filled with rubbish and their bodies filled with yet more deep fried potatoes.
And God said to the boy, Take the girl and go forth and multiply. And of your seed I shall make a great nation, as numberless as the stars of the heavens.
And the Devil invented the computer and recruited 10,000 demons to fill it with online battles and images of top-heavy women. And the boy did part with the girl and did instead cleave to the computer.
And God pointed out to the girl that he had made her with many attractive blandishments which she could use whenever the boy was away from the computer.
And the Devil invented the Nintendo DS Lite (I want that one! oops,) so that the boy will be able to take computer games with him wherever he goes.
Now the serpent was more subtle than any of the animals that God had created. And the Devil did enter into the serpent and cause him to say to the girl and the boy, The tree in the middle of the garden the Lord hath told you not to touch. But I say unto you, if you eat of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, your eyes will be opened and you shall be as gods.
And the boy and the girl looked at the serpent and said unto him: No thanks. We Liketh not fruit. But hast thou any deep-fried potatoes?
And here ended today's scripture reading.
Amen.
I asked myself if people in Asia were less decisive than people in the West. "I think I'm decisive," I admitted. "But I'm not really sure." I just noticed Western ways of thinking clearly seperated opposing forces such as good and evil, while Eastern ways of thinking tried to balance them in a yin ang yang fashion.
That thinking-green-analysis intrigued me. That very morning I'd given a talk to my little cousins and asked them to give me their version of the story of creation. (Sounds like I'm having a teaching theology here.) And the youngsters (of course, also me!) carefully balanced the roles of God and the Devil. We ended up solving a lot of mysteries. (Yeah, they're having a lot of fun about that.)
Now most people know the tale of what God did in his first seven days, but after talking to young people (my cousins), living here in Asia (the Philippines), I can now exclusively reveal what the Devil was up to that first week.
In the beginning God created heaven and earth. And earth was without form and void.
And God made a circular light in the heavens, and He called it the Sun. And God saw that the light was good.
And the Devil made a smaller light, rectangular in shape, and he called it TV. And the Devil saw that the light was bad.
And God made springs which came out of the ground, oozing fountains of pure, fresh water. And God saw that the water was good.
And the Devil invented fizzy drinks. And saw that the fizzy drinks were bad.
And God said, Let the earth bring forth vegetables, and the herb of the field, that the children may grow up healthy. And it was so.
And the devil said, Let there be deep fried potatoes.
And God said, Let the waters bring forth 10,000 varieties of fish, that they may provide sustenance for the children.
And the Devil arranged that the fish be smothered in batter, deep fried, and served with deep fried potatoes.
And God created the cattle of the field, and said, Behold, I have given you every living creature that moved; to you it shall be for meat.
And the Devil showed how the meat could be minced and turned into burgers, and suggested that it be always served with deep fried potatoes.
And on the seventh day God rested and asked that his children rest too, and use the day to contemplate the wonders of creation.
And the Devil created the all-day brunch, cartoon TV channels, and Sunday newspapers, filled with articles about celebrities, that the minds of the children be filled with rubbish and their bodies filled with yet more deep fried potatoes.
And God said to the boy, Take the girl and go forth and multiply. And of your seed I shall make a great nation, as numberless as the stars of the heavens.
And the Devil invented the computer and recruited 10,000 demons to fill it with online battles and images of top-heavy women. And the boy did part with the girl and did instead cleave to the computer.
And God pointed out to the girl that he had made her with many attractive blandishments which she could use whenever the boy was away from the computer.
And the Devil invented the Nintendo DS Lite (I want that one! oops,) so that the boy will be able to take computer games with him wherever he goes.
Now the serpent was more subtle than any of the animals that God had created. And the Devil did enter into the serpent and cause him to say to the girl and the boy, The tree in the middle of the garden the Lord hath told you not to touch. But I say unto you, if you eat of the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, your eyes will be opened and you shall be as gods.
And the boy and the girl looked at the serpent and said unto him: No thanks. We Liketh not fruit. But hast thou any deep-fried potatoes?
And here ended today's scripture reading.
Amen.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
39 Expressions of Advice
Think positive. And be optimistic. We have to live our lives to the fullest. Or else, we will regret on what taking us to surpass for the life of time.
1.Walk for 10-30 minutes every day, while smiling.
2.Sit quietly for at least 10 minutes every day, in isolation if necessary.
3.Upon arising in the morning, one must immediately say “My goal today is....”
4.Listen to quality music every day. This is real nourishment for the soul.
5.Live with the 3 Es: Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.
6.Play more games than last year.
7.Read more books than last year.
8.Look at the sky at least once a day, appreciating the majesty of the world that surrounds us.
9.Dream more while awake.
10.Eat more foods that come from trees and plants. Eat less manufactured foods.
11.Eat berries and nuts. Drink green tea, plenty of water, and a glass of wine each day; toast something beautiful in life and, if possible, in the company of a loved one.
12.Try to make at least 3 people laugh every day.
13.Don’t spend your precious time immersed in rumors, things from the past, negative thoughts or things beyond your control. It is better to invest your energy in the positive present.
14.Life is a school, and we are here to learn. Problems are lessons that come and go; what we learn from them will serve us for the rest of our lives.
15.Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince, and dinner like a beggar.
16.Eliminate clutter in the home, the car, and the office. Let a new energy enter your life.
17.Smile and laugh more often. :)
18.Do not let an opportunity pass to hug a friend.
19.Life is too short to waste time hating someone.
20.Don’t take yourself so seriously. Nobody else does.
21.It is not necessary to win every argument. One must accept that the other person is not in agreement, and learn from his position.
22.Make peace with your past, so as not to ruin your present.
23.Don’t compare your life with others. You have no idea of the highways they have traveled during their lives.
24.Nobody is responsible for your happiness, except yourself.
25.Remember well that we have no control over what happens to us, but only what we do.
26.Learn something new every day.
27.What others think of us is not completely under our control.
28.Appreciate your body, and its marvels.
29.Whether the situation is good or bad, it will change.
30.Work will not take care of us when we are sick. Our friends will. Stay in contact with them.
31.Reject everything that is not useful, amusing, or beautiful.
32.Don’t lose time. We already have all the things we need.
33.The best is yet to come.
34.Nothing is as important as sitting, standing, getting dressed, and helping others.
35.Have fantastic sex, always in harmony with the other person.
36.Phone your family regularly, and tell them “Hi, I was thinking of you”.
37.Each day, before going to sleep, say: I am thankful for ________. Today, I succeeded in ___________.
38.Remember that we have too much that is good to be stressed.
39.Enjoy the voyage. There is only one chance to be successful! :')
1.Walk for 10-30 minutes every day, while smiling.
2.Sit quietly for at least 10 minutes every day, in isolation if necessary.
3.Upon arising in the morning, one must immediately say “My goal today is....”
4.Listen to quality music every day. This is real nourishment for the soul.
5.Live with the 3 Es: Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy.
6.Play more games than last year.
7.Read more books than last year.
8.Look at the sky at least once a day, appreciating the majesty of the world that surrounds us.
9.Dream more while awake.
10.Eat more foods that come from trees and plants. Eat less manufactured foods.
11.Eat berries and nuts. Drink green tea, plenty of water, and a glass of wine each day; toast something beautiful in life and, if possible, in the company of a loved one.
12.Try to make at least 3 people laugh every day.
13.Don’t spend your precious time immersed in rumors, things from the past, negative thoughts or things beyond your control. It is better to invest your energy in the positive present.
14.Life is a school, and we are here to learn. Problems are lessons that come and go; what we learn from them will serve us for the rest of our lives.
15.Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince, and dinner like a beggar.
16.Eliminate clutter in the home, the car, and the office. Let a new energy enter your life.
17.Smile and laugh more often. :)
18.Do not let an opportunity pass to hug a friend.
19.Life is too short to waste time hating someone.
20.Don’t take yourself so seriously. Nobody else does.
21.It is not necessary to win every argument. One must accept that the other person is not in agreement, and learn from his position.
22.Make peace with your past, so as not to ruin your present.
23.Don’t compare your life with others. You have no idea of the highways they have traveled during their lives.
24.Nobody is responsible for your happiness, except yourself.
25.Remember well that we have no control over what happens to us, but only what we do.
26.Learn something new every day.
27.What others think of us is not completely under our control.
28.Appreciate your body, and its marvels.
29.Whether the situation is good or bad, it will change.
30.Work will not take care of us when we are sick. Our friends will. Stay in contact with them.
31.Reject everything that is not useful, amusing, or beautiful.
32.Don’t lose time. We already have all the things we need.
33.The best is yet to come.
34.Nothing is as important as sitting, standing, getting dressed, and helping others.
35.Have fantastic sex, always in harmony with the other person.
36.Phone your family regularly, and tell them “Hi, I was thinking of you”.
37.Each day, before going to sleep, say: I am thankful for ________. Today, I succeeded in ___________.
38.Remember that we have too much that is good to be stressed.
39.Enjoy the voyage. There is only one chance to be successful! :')
I guess this would help me. Whew!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Here is the final new trailer for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. :)
Voldemort is tightening his grip on both the Muggle and wizarding worlds and Hogwarts is no longer the safe haven it once was. Harry suspects that dangers may even lie within the castle, but Dumbledore is more intent upon preparing him for the final battle that he knows is fast approaching. Together they work to find the key to unlock Voldemort's defenses and, to this end, Dumbledore recruits his old friend and colleague, the well-connected and unsuspecting bon vivant Professor Horace Slughorn, whom he believes holds crucial information. Meanwhile, the students are under attack from a very different adversary as teenage hormones rage across the ramparts. Harry finds himself more and more drawn to Ginny, but so is Dean Thomas. And Lavender Brown has decided that Ron is the one for her, only she hadn't counted on Romilda Vane's chocolates! And then there's Hermione, simpering with jealously but determined not to show her feelings. As romance blossoms, one student remains aloof. He is determined to make his mark, albeit a dark one. Love is in the air, but tragedy lies ahead and Hogwarts may never be the same again.
Release Date:
US: July 15th, 2009
©2009 All Trailer Rights To Warner Brothers.
Voldemort is tightening his grip on both the Muggle and wizarding worlds and Hogwarts is no longer the safe haven it once was. Harry suspects that dangers may even lie within the castle, but Dumbledore is more intent upon preparing him for the final battle that he knows is fast approaching. Together they work to find the key to unlock Voldemort's defenses and, to this end, Dumbledore recruits his old friend and colleague, the well-connected and unsuspecting bon vivant Professor Horace Slughorn, whom he believes holds crucial information. Meanwhile, the students are under attack from a very different adversary as teenage hormones rage across the ramparts. Harry finds himself more and more drawn to Ginny, but so is Dean Thomas. And Lavender Brown has decided that Ron is the one for her, only she hadn't counted on Romilda Vane's chocolates! And then there's Hermione, simpering with jealously but determined not to show her feelings. As romance blossoms, one student remains aloof. He is determined to make his mark, albeit a dark one. Love is in the air, but tragedy lies ahead and Hogwarts may never be the same again.
Release Date:
US: July 15th, 2009
©2009 All Trailer Rights To Warner Brothers.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
25 Things I Hate About Facebook
Friday, April 10, 2009
Inspirational Verses
It's Holy Week guys! Despite from the hardships, problems and the not-so-good situations that we encounter. God is always there for us. He never abandoned us. He loves us. Always loves us. And here are some inspirational and beautiful verses coming from the beautiful book of the bible. Hoping that you can embrace it and strenghten your faith with God. Amen. :)
John 14:1-3
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.
Psalm 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Philippians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
Romans 10:9-11
That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. As the Scripture says, "Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame."
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
John 14:1-3
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.
Psalm 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Philippians 4:6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
Romans 10:9-11
That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. As the Scripture says, "Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame."
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Come Back To Me
My Working Style
Just took a quiz something stuff on the internet and here's what I've got. Just want it to share and elaborate with you guys. :)
You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to ideas or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values.
~ Oh am I? HAHA;] Yes. I didn't much talk to someone I don't know more. Less talk, more listen. And am I faithful for my duties and obligations? HAHA;] sometimes. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Depending on the situation babyyy. Case to case basis actually. And I am definitely agree with the third sentence! To the people I care, it's a BIG YES. :)
You stick to your ideals with passionate conviction. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by a quiet reserve.
~ Umm. This is kinda true. Yes, I admit it that my deepest feelings are hidden and I seldomly (or randomly,) expressed it. But I am loyal with my decision and stick in to it no matter what. Follow my heart and it will do the rest. Let it be. Amen!
In everyday matters you are tolerant, open-minded, understanding, flexible, and adaptable. But if your inner loyalties are threatened, you will not give an inch. Except for your work's sake, you have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.
~ This is so true. And I thanks yous for all of you guys reading my walang-kwentang blogposts. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko kayo mababayaran kundi sa pag-comment nalang din sa mga blogposts ninyo. Maraming Salamat! *kawaii :)
Your main interest lies in seeing the possibilities beyond what is present, obvious, or known. You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you--human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you care deeply about something.
~ Honestly, I am not super perfectionists (sometimes lang). If I am not contented, I want it more! Wala lang, I want more talaga. But if iyon lang ang kaya mong gawin, wala na akong magagawa. Just accept it with no alinlangan. And I want to share and contribute a lot of things to everyone what I believe to and what I deserve to be. I am optimitistic. Once things worked with me, I'll work it out.
You are curious about new ideas and tend to have insight and long-range vision. You are interested in books and language and are likely to have a gift of expression; with talent you may be excellent writers. You can be ingenious and persuasive on the subject of your enthusiasms, which are quiet but deep-rooted. You are often attracted to counseling, teaching, literature, art, science, or psychology.
~ Aww. This is more than a compliment than a statement! HAHAHA:]]
I definitely get attracted to teaching? (yes!), literature (love to read something..), art (graffiti,mosaic,etc!), and science? (biochemistry? HAHA;] slight! but science learns me more!) Umm. Not quite with the counselling. Psychology? (hell no!)
The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can happen even when, objectively, you are being as effecive as others. It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become overly sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself.
~ I agree, this is so true. I am more with doubts. Doubts is my hobby so hindi ko ma-express ang mga nasa inner ideals ko. I'm afraid of something. And I think that is one of my weaknesses. Maybe I want it more but not too perfectionists. (You know what I mean?) Hopefully, I can overcome with it. In time. :)
My Suitable Careers:
You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to ideas or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values.
~ Oh am I? HAHA;] Yes. I didn't much talk to someone I don't know more. Less talk, more listen. And am I faithful for my duties and obligations? HAHA;] sometimes. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Depending on the situation babyyy. Case to case basis actually. And I am definitely agree with the third sentence! To the people I care, it's a BIG YES. :)
You stick to your ideals with passionate conviction. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by a quiet reserve.
~ Umm. This is kinda true. Yes, I admit it that my deepest feelings are hidden and I seldomly (or randomly,) expressed it. But I am loyal with my decision and stick in to it no matter what. Follow my heart and it will do the rest. Let it be. Amen!
In everyday matters you are tolerant, open-minded, understanding, flexible, and adaptable. But if your inner loyalties are threatened, you will not give an inch. Except for your work's sake, you have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.
~ This is so true. And I thanks yous for all of you guys reading my walang-kwentang blogposts. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko kayo mababayaran kundi sa pag-comment nalang din sa mga blogposts ninyo. Maraming Salamat! *kawaii :)
Your main interest lies in seeing the possibilities beyond what is present, obvious, or known. You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you--human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you care deeply about something.
~ Honestly, I am not super perfectionists (sometimes lang). If I am not contented, I want it more! Wala lang, I want more talaga. But if iyon lang ang kaya mong gawin, wala na akong magagawa. Just accept it with no alinlangan. And I want to share and contribute a lot of things to everyone what I believe to and what I deserve to be. I am optimitistic. Once things worked with me, I'll work it out.
You are curious about new ideas and tend to have insight and long-range vision. You are interested in books and language and are likely to have a gift of expression; with talent you may be excellent writers. You can be ingenious and persuasive on the subject of your enthusiasms, which are quiet but deep-rooted. You are often attracted to counseling, teaching, literature, art, science, or psychology.
~ Aww. This is more than a compliment than a statement! HAHAHA:]]
I definitely get attracted to teaching? (yes!), literature (love to read something..), art (graffiti,mosaic,etc!), and science? (biochemistry? HAHA;] slight! but science learns me more!) Umm. Not quite with the counselling. Psychology? (hell no!)
The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can happen even when, objectively, you are being as effecive as others. It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become overly sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself.
~ I agree, this is so true. I am more with doubts. Doubts is my hobby so hindi ko ma-express ang mga nasa inner ideals ko. I'm afraid of something. And I think that is one of my weaknesses. Maybe I want it more but not too perfectionists. (You know what I mean?) Hopefully, I can overcome with it. In time. :)
My Suitable Careers:
- actor (When I grow up, I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies..)
- architect (Sorry, but mathematics REALLY hates me. HAHA:])
- artist (Uhh, it gives me chills!)
- composer ( I love music. My therapy..)
- consultant (What kind of a consultant? HAHA:])
- editor (I want to work on a fashion magazine. Soon!!! ASAness.)
- holistic health practitioner (Did you mean, a Pharmacist?)
- interpreter or translator (How I wish I could learn different languages. But I think it's fun!)
- journalist (Umm. Do I?)
- librarian (Hell no.)
- massage therapist (I am not good in that. Oh please..)
- musician (One of my dreams! Hic! :P)
- occupational therapist (I don't know what kind of job is this.)
- photographer (Two of my dreams! :P)
- psychotherapist (Why?)
- religious educator (Umm. Priest? Teacher on Theology? NO-NO-NO! HAHAHA:])
- researcher (My hobby is to research.. on the internet! HEHE;])
- scientist (How I wish..)
- social scientist (Wow, in my dreams. ASAness.)
- speech pathologist (Did you say speech on diseases or something? HAHAHA;)
- teacher (First ambition. Honestly!)
- writer (Three of my dreams! Way to GO!)
This is really ridiculous to me. Nangangarap ng gising, but I don't know what really is in store for me. We really don't know. By the way, it's just a guide. ;)
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I Surrendered - Squandered.
Heck! I am not busy. Otherwise, I am so bored. Oh yes, hello boredom.
Err. I squander a lot of things. Things that can be percept and not perceptible. And I know that I should cope up with it. Wala naman akong magagawa eh, wala kang magagawa. And it will be damn hard to face this things but you will get used to it. If you can dexteriorate this kind of oh-not-so-simple things and oh-not-so-damn-right situations, you will be awarded with the Best Actor/Actress in a real life situation. And I could hear the growling of others which it seems they reacted.
Anyways, get a life! Don't mind others if they opposed to.
But then again, you seemed not so happy with the given award to you. I know a lot of things you sacrificed to get this or should I say wasted?
Wasted Money.
Yes. I know people otherwise, humans are easily get tempted when it comes to money. Humans are rational beings: they have their own freewill and intellect. And this two important characteristics are little by little getting absorbed by the root of all evil. Money.
I know that we are not perfect but humans as we are, you are getting absurd if you are trying or masking to be perfect. And I know the fact that our global crisis experiencing today as financial other than global warming. And this sealed with the government corruption that made of one hundred percent papyrus are influencing the innocent minds and like a leeches sipped the whole of you. And here am I, sitting in my armchair. Waiting for nothing. Nothing.
Wasted Time.
I sometimes wish that my life can be a movie stored in a rare compact disk where you can play it on your gigantic flat screen television and you can stop it, forward it, replay it. And the headmaster is the movie reviewer criticizing your natural directed movie.
But it seems that you can't hold the glass hour everyday. There will be time that you didn't even know that tomorrow is your last day on this earth. You didn't even know that you will be in love with someone. You didn't even know that you will be sick. You didn't even know that you will meet somebody who can spend with the rest of your life. You didn't even know that you will be lucky or unlucky. You didn't even know that you are having an accident. And you didn't even know that you are not a human anymore just a soul, roaming around with nothing. Finding a friend named Casper. Or even search for justice. Freaky. It is way too unpredictable. Clueless. Biohazard.
Every tick-tock you hear is important. It is priceless. And you could answer it that why time is gold. Seems superficial. And I dissipated it. Hours by hours. Minutes by minutes. Seconds by seconds. And every single day is almost important to accomplish your mission by the momentum of a single agenda. But, wala akong masisisi. Although mayroong kirot sa damdamin that kasalanan niya or kasalanan ng iba why I suffered in waiting for clueless limbo.
Wasted Expectations.
Always look forward but straightforward.
I regret it why I should expect more this time. A lot of good expectations wasted. And ended up with the unexpected bad flying saucer hit you almost many times. Poor little thing. It is unfair for you to suffer. And I know that all of us in this world knows that may nanlalamang at may nilalamangan. Yes, I agreed. I should not expect more. I should not hope for something. Remember that promises are always meant to be broken. You should do it before you mean that promise okay? No asking for more.
Wasted Prayers.
I pray to God everyday. And I know that prayer is the most dynamic way to contact God. To easily connect with God. To easily send a message with God with unlimited properties and infinite settings. Prayers are sacred. You can talk with God with different emotions whether you are angry, sad, happy or anything under the sun. But I know that life is like a ball. In a simple explanation, ball is bouncy. It can be bounce up or down and back or forth. It where stated our gulong ng palad is. And I know that there are sometimes prayers can't be answered by this time and soon can be justify.
Wasted Dreams.
I am walking upstairs and I can't easily catch up whether I should step on the wet surface of the floor or just ignore it and walk to the another step which kakaligtaan mo na lamang. We are surrounded with doubts. Always have a question mark in our heads and soon can be crashed up with an exclamation point. We are afraid to do that. And afraid are way too risky. All of us have problems. It is the important ingredient where you can find out that your life seems more meanigful to you. Enlightened me by that. Hoping it deserves to me after all.
I doubt a lot of things. And I didn't even know how to mingle with it. All I know that I am scared. Scared of doing something that you will regret it for the rest of your life. But I can't help it. Having doubts is like my hobby. And you know that it is too way unfashionable for the people near at you. And it is not a gift nor a present. It is just a mail where you hardly open it.
Then I saw my kiddo reflected on a shattered glass. The way it dress, the way it talks and the way it acts.
I hope that someday Masquerain will soon to be shown up and touch my hand under the rain falls.
Err. I squander a lot of things. Things that can be percept and not perceptible. And I know that I should cope up with it. Wala naman akong magagawa eh, wala kang magagawa. And it will be damn hard to face this things but you will get used to it. If you can dexteriorate this kind of oh-not-so-simple things and oh-not-so-damn-right situations, you will be awarded with the Best Actor/Actress in a real life situation. And I could hear the growling of others which it seems they reacted.
Anyways, get a life! Don't mind others if they opposed to.
But then again, you seemed not so happy with the given award to you. I know a lot of things you sacrificed to get this or should I say wasted?
Wasted Money.
Yes. I know people otherwise, humans are easily get tempted when it comes to money. Humans are rational beings: they have their own freewill and intellect. And this two important characteristics are little by little getting absorbed by the root of all evil. Money.
I know that we are not perfect but humans as we are, you are getting absurd if you are trying or masking to be perfect. And I know the fact that our global crisis experiencing today as financial other than global warming. And this sealed with the government corruption that made of one hundred percent papyrus are influencing the innocent minds and like a leeches sipped the whole of you. And here am I, sitting in my armchair. Waiting for nothing. Nothing.
Wasted Time.
I sometimes wish that my life can be a movie stored in a rare compact disk where you can play it on your gigantic flat screen television and you can stop it, forward it, replay it. And the headmaster is the movie reviewer criticizing your natural directed movie.
But it seems that you can't hold the glass hour everyday. There will be time that you didn't even know that tomorrow is your last day on this earth. You didn't even know that you will be in love with someone. You didn't even know that you will be sick. You didn't even know that you will meet somebody who can spend with the rest of your life. You didn't even know that you will be lucky or unlucky. You didn't even know that you are having an accident. And you didn't even know that you are not a human anymore just a soul, roaming around with nothing. Finding a friend named Casper. Or even search for justice. Freaky. It is way too unpredictable. Clueless. Biohazard.
Every tick-tock you hear is important. It is priceless. And you could answer it that why time is gold. Seems superficial. And I dissipated it. Hours by hours. Minutes by minutes. Seconds by seconds. And every single day is almost important to accomplish your mission by the momentum of a single agenda. But, wala akong masisisi. Although mayroong kirot sa damdamin that kasalanan niya or kasalanan ng iba why I suffered in waiting for clueless limbo.
Wasted Expectations.
Always look forward but straightforward.
I regret it why I should expect more this time. A lot of good expectations wasted. And ended up with the unexpected bad flying saucer hit you almost many times. Poor little thing. It is unfair for you to suffer. And I know that all of us in this world knows that may nanlalamang at may nilalamangan. Yes, I agreed. I should not expect more. I should not hope for something. Remember that promises are always meant to be broken. You should do it before you mean that promise okay? No asking for more.
Wasted Prayers.
I pray to God everyday. And I know that prayer is the most dynamic way to contact God. To easily connect with God. To easily send a message with God with unlimited properties and infinite settings. Prayers are sacred. You can talk with God with different emotions whether you are angry, sad, happy or anything under the sun. But I know that life is like a ball. In a simple explanation, ball is bouncy. It can be bounce up or down and back or forth. It where stated our gulong ng palad is. And I know that there are sometimes prayers can't be answered by this time and soon can be justify.
Wasted Dreams.
I am walking upstairs and I can't easily catch up whether I should step on the wet surface of the floor or just ignore it and walk to the another step which kakaligtaan mo na lamang. We are surrounded with doubts. Always have a question mark in our heads and soon can be crashed up with an exclamation point. We are afraid to do that. And afraid are way too risky. All of us have problems. It is the important ingredient where you can find out that your life seems more meanigful to you. Enlightened me by that. Hoping it deserves to me after all.
I doubt a lot of things. And I didn't even know how to mingle with it. All I know that I am scared. Scared of doing something that you will regret it for the rest of your life. But I can't help it. Having doubts is like my hobby. And you know that it is too way unfashionable for the people near at you. And it is not a gift nor a present. It is just a mail where you hardly open it.
Then I saw my kiddo reflected on a shattered glass. The way it dress, the way it talks and the way it acts.
I hope that someday Masquerain will soon to be shown up and touch my hand under the rain falls.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
That Troublemaker.
Tick-tock-tick-tock..
What's the matter dear? Have you seen the clock?
It's alarming, and you didn't want to face it up. Buzz off!
Been asleep for next few hours. Gimme some more time dear and I'm gonna hook it up.
Yes. I can finally give it up to the ring master what's the best for me. And I surrender it without any intensions that it could change my mind. Serious trouble ahead.
Last mission, need to accomplish this time. Oh I need time.
The angel without any halo keeps bugging at me. Buzz it off!
I need more time. Please leave me alone dear.
That stupid cuddly pillow wants to hug me. And I can't breath enormously. Please stop it!
Honestly, I didn't enjoy my dreams. Boring. Nonsense.
All I could do is sleep. Like taking up some pill and some depressants.
And I could enjoy my sickness at the same time. At the same place. In my little sanctuary.
I could embrace my problems and give it with a big warm hug. Thank you for your hospitality. We can't abhor the fact that it deserves to you a lot.
Then the cellphone beeps.
Got the message received.
"We're here! We almost got there.."
What's the matter dear? Have you seen the clock?
It's alarming, and you didn't want to face it up. Buzz off!
Been asleep for next few hours. Gimme some more time dear and I'm gonna hook it up.
Yes. I can finally give it up to the ring master what's the best for me. And I surrender it without any intensions that it could change my mind. Serious trouble ahead.
Last mission, need to accomplish this time. Oh I need time.
The angel without any halo keeps bugging at me. Buzz it off!
I need more time. Please leave me alone dear.
That stupid cuddly pillow wants to hug me. And I can't breath enormously. Please stop it!
Honestly, I didn't enjoy my dreams. Boring. Nonsense.
All I could do is sleep. Like taking up some pill and some depressants.
And I could enjoy my sickness at the same time. At the same place. In my little sanctuary.
I could embrace my problems and give it with a big warm hug. Thank you for your hospitality. We can't abhor the fact that it deserves to you a lot.
Then the cellphone beeps.
Got the message received.
"We're here! We almost got there.."
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Don't Forget
Every once in a while you have to bite your lip and admit that you were wrong..
"But somewhere we went wrong. Our love is like a song, but you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us."
..and you just realized that it's OVER. :'(
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
I Rock You!
All of us have our own dreams. Have our own goals. Our own desire. When we grow up, we want to be something. Something to be proud of. Something to show off in a whole wide world with our own kakayahan and talento. We want to be more, like with ourselves. We just want to be with who we are. By following our goals and dreams, walking on the stairs and illuminating ourselves with your own spotlight. But what if your dream is to be like a rockstar? Or like a Hannah Monatana role model and even Jonas Brothers likey-likey? Enough said about that. HAHAHA:]]
Then, I just fathom the lyrics of a song by Nickelback entitled "Rockstar". Like in a lyrics said, "I wanna be a rockstar. blah-blah-blah..". As I read a column in a magazine, I enjoyed reading it about a rockstar-wannabe and I just want it to share with you guys about it. So here it is.
You know you're a freakin' rockstar when you..
Always say "Talk to my manager".
Even to your closest friends. Often it turns out that your manager is infinitely more famous than you are.
Show up late for anything -- especially during concerts, rehearsals, and recording sessions.
And in the event you do, the industrial-strength smell of alcohol suddenly pervades the studio.
You release an album of electronic remixes.
By the leading DJs in the industry. Never mind if no one actually heard your songs in the original versions.
You suddenly adopt a one-word alias.
Because "Procopio Amadeus Corcolon, Jr." just doesn't rock the same way as "Edge," "Sky," or "Flash 24."
Begin hitting the gym and dieting.
'Cause you'll be peeling off your shirt after the fifth song.
You start avoiding the huge crowds.
For fear of being mobbed for photo-oops and autographs. That's why part of our band's tech rider stipulates for a battery of bodyguards. Or, like one semi-famous rock chick in the '90s, was reported going to Megamall wearing a disguise. Never mind if only a total of ten people knew who she was-even with a mask of.
You can't be made to wait.
Backstage, especially with.. eww, less famous bands. So the organizers would just call you at your van (rented, of course) 2-3 minutes before you're on. If possible, you can't even bothered to walk, so the van would squeeze into the backstage prod area, sending people frantically pushing aside gigantic apple boxes, guitar cases, bags, and monobloc chairs.
You begin hangout with artistas, socialites, models, and designers.
'Cause you know, like, they're cool and they're the only ones who understand your created temperament. But can never be trusted.
Every time you raise your arms the crowd goes nuts.
You twirl the mike stand, you stand on top of speakers and amplifiers, you jump, and you stage-dive when the crowd starts pulling.
You start your own charity.
Because you are naturally altruistic and you want to use your celebrity to make the world a better place. Like, yah, dude. Let's like, help the mahirap people naman and the youth because, dude, they're the future of our bansa...
You start appearing on 'The Buzz'.
Perhaps via rumors of romantic dalliances with a certain starlet. And charmingly you say,
"Friends lang po kami..." :)
Next year you'll be in rehab.
But don't worry, you'll stage a big comeback-at Zirkoh bar, as opening act for the gay standup comedian.
Let's face it. It is a reality guys. So, if you want to have the best of both worlds, just always be take your feet on the ground and never lalaki ang ulo. And remember, spotlights are reversible.
Then, I just fathom the lyrics of a song by Nickelback entitled "Rockstar". Like in a lyrics said, "I wanna be a rockstar. blah-blah-blah..". As I read a column in a magazine, I enjoyed reading it about a rockstar-wannabe and I just want it to share with you guys about it. So here it is.
You know you're a freakin' rockstar when you..
Always say "Talk to my manager".
Even to your closest friends. Often it turns out that your manager is infinitely more famous than you are.
Show up late for anything -- especially during concerts, rehearsals, and recording sessions.
And in the event you do, the industrial-strength smell of alcohol suddenly pervades the studio.
You release an album of electronic remixes.
By the leading DJs in the industry. Never mind if no one actually heard your songs in the original versions.
You suddenly adopt a one-word alias.
Because "Procopio Amadeus Corcolon, Jr." just doesn't rock the same way as "Edge," "Sky," or "Flash 24."
Begin hitting the gym and dieting.
'Cause you'll be peeling off your shirt after the fifth song.
You start avoiding the huge crowds.
For fear of being mobbed for photo-oops and autographs. That's why part of our band's tech rider stipulates for a battery of bodyguards. Or, like one semi-famous rock chick in the '90s, was reported going to Megamall wearing a disguise. Never mind if only a total of ten people knew who she was-even with a mask of.
You can't be made to wait.
Backstage, especially with.. eww, less famous bands. So the organizers would just call you at your van (rented, of course) 2-3 minutes before you're on. If possible, you can't even bothered to walk, so the van would squeeze into the backstage prod area, sending people frantically pushing aside gigantic apple boxes, guitar cases, bags, and monobloc chairs.
You begin hangout with artistas, socialites, models, and designers.
'Cause you know, like, they're cool and they're the only ones who understand your created temperament. But can never be trusted.
Every time you raise your arms the crowd goes nuts.
You twirl the mike stand, you stand on top of speakers and amplifiers, you jump, and you stage-dive when the crowd starts pulling.
You start your own charity.
Because you are naturally altruistic and you want to use your celebrity to make the world a better place. Like, yah, dude. Let's like, help the mahirap people naman and the youth because, dude, they're the future of our bansa...
You start appearing on 'The Buzz'.
Perhaps via rumors of romantic dalliances with a certain starlet. And charmingly you say,
"Friends lang po kami..." :)
Next year you'll be in rehab.
But don't worry, you'll stage a big comeback-at Zirkoh bar, as opening act for the gay standup comedian.
Let's face it. It is a reality guys. So, if you want to have the best of both worlds, just always be take your feet on the ground and never lalaki ang ulo. And remember, spotlights are reversible.
Monday, March 16, 2009
No More Keroppi
Did you know that frogs are now endagered species? An affliction has been besetting frogs all over the world and biologists say that this has something to do with global warming. However at this stage, researchers still can't place it all in one solid explanation. One thing is for sure, frogs are dying globally and in massive numbers at that.
Do you remember the time when you could hear frogs croaking in unison? We never stopped to think about it, but sure enough we no longer hear those phenomenal frog conciertos anymore. As early as 1996, the Sierra Nevada frogs were noticed to be decreasing in numbers. Whereas before, they croaked and leaped in abundance both in the low and high of the Sierra Nevada ranges, the last survey in 1999 came up with only 2 Sierra frogs remaining.
In 2003, Conservationsts sued the Fish and Wildlife Services for refusing to list the frogs under the Endangered Species Protection program. They wanted to give the frogs protection from several factors they considered as detrimental to the frog's existence, namely: grazing, recreation, dams and water diversion, roads and predation. They scored a victory in 2006 when the Federal judge ordered the Fish and Wildlife Services to list the Yellow-legged frog and the Yosemite toad under the Endangered Species Protection program. So they thought the problem will be kept under control.
Recent developments however showed that frogs all over the world are dying and in massive numbers including those in tropical countries. What the Sierra Nevada folks thought as an isolated case was happening globally. That's the reason we no longer hear the "blidits" and the croaks nor see them hop-hop- hopping along the road anymore as we pass by the mountainsides. In fact, can you remember those times when you saw bodies of frogs on the roads obviously victims of hit and run incidents?
Scientists have now devoted their time in researching for answers and to find out what seems to be wiping out these frogs on the face of the Earth. Actually, it's no longer just a matter of frogs dying, the issue is now about biodiversity - where every living thing, even in the minutest of form is essential to maintain a balanced ecology.
They have considered global warming and the rise in temperatures. They have connected it to a certain fungus but this fungus was supposed to have been extinct a long time ago. Scientists are still baffled while frogs continue to die. If the next generation ever gets to read about the frog prince, kids in the future will never get to see a real frog and understand why the princess refused to kiss it.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
New Moon Updates
Okay guys. Since I catch up in the internet about the New Moon Movie, they start filming again and I don't know who are the other cast members because the production cannot spill it out. It makes me excited. But one thing's for sure that Dakota Fanning is played as Jane in one of the Volturi characters.
Now here's something to feast on.
Pictures have surfaced of Robert Pattinson & Co. on the Vancouver set of New Moon, the highly anticipated (an understatement, if there ever was one) sequel to Twilight.
Of course, just the sight of a pale-faced Rob Pattz, Kristen Stewart, Taylor Lautner (still in a wig!) and Nikki Reed all in character and back in action definitely has us over the.. well, you know.
So sink your teeth into more after the jump!
P.S. Don't worry about containing your excitement. We certainly aren't!
Now here's something to feast on.
Pictures have surfaced of Robert Pattinson & Co. on the Vancouver set of New Moon, the highly anticipated (an understatement, if there ever was one) sequel to Twilight.
Of course, just the sight of a pale-faced Rob Pattz, Kristen Stewart, Taylor Lautner (still in a wig!) and Nikki Reed all in character and back in action definitely has us over the.. well, you know.
So sink your teeth into more after the jump!
P.S. Don't worry about containing your excitement. We certainly aren't!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
A Child's Love
Love's unconditional. :) A must read:
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?' The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think.
'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8
'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4
'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'
Karl - age 5
'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6
'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4
'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7
'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8
'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'
Bobby - age 7
'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6
'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'
Noelle - age 7
'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6
'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8
'My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'
Clare - age 6
'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5
'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'
Chris - age 7
'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'
Mary Ann - age 4
'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4
'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'
Karen - age 7
'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'
Mark - age 6
'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry.'
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?' The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think.
'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8
'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4
'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'
Karl - age 5
'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6
'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4
'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7
'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8
'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.'
Bobby - age 7
'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6
'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'
Noelle - age 7
'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6
'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8
'My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'
Clare - age 6
'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5
'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'
Chris - age 7
'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'
Mary Ann - age 4
'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4
'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.'
Karen - age 7
'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'
Mark - age 6
'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry.'
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Sleeping Beauty
"And I am waiting for you hoping that your feelings would be the same for me. I am waiting here in vain. Can't recognize where I was and what am I doing here? I still care for you. I still miss you. And I stay in love with you.
Please come back to me my love. I'll do everything you need. You are one in a million. You are one of a kind. I have no strength to be with you. I am weak. Please support me and guide me to fill up the missing pieces of your heart. Let me complete it with no pretensions and no promises but with full sincerity and faithfully desire.
I can see through your eyes that you really needs me. Your passion of love for me makes it more intense to kiss me so that I have a strength to awake now and let the love begins between us.
But all of a sudden, things would never be the same between us.
People change. Feelings change. And everybody changes.
And I can hear it through my ear the dirge deep from within.
But I still love you, since we were both young when I first saw you.."
-Princess Aurora
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Erase me backward, Refresh me forward.
"I am sooo one hundred and one percent better than you are."
Very well said. Very well. Whew! I nearly killed it. My other side really speaks to me a lot. It's way better than before. And I can't signing out of it, I can't. It's just that I don't know how to deal with it but from time to time it makes dexterous. (Sounds really weird. Oh I'm starting to be psychotic. Scared.)
Hallucinations? Yep, it can be. But don't judge me if I have sometimes acting really weird about this time guys. Oh c'mon give me break! I just need a strength. To go up on my bed and walk downstairs and sit on a computer table and it just sounds like click-click-click.
Talking about myself. I really know how to figure it out. It's just my therapy. I need to focus all about myself. Just give some credits to yourself okay?
It sounds really weird but, try to talk to yourself in front of the mirror. Talk to yourself. Take some questions about yourself. And answer it honestly and faithfully. Then, don't forget to exhale and inhale properly when you are doing that. Nevermind if you're opposed to. But based on the top psychological studies where I research on the internet, it really makes you feel better (eventhough it's acting really weirdo thingie.) But it really helps. Just try some. :)
It would affect to decrease the crazy people out there. Literally.
And this actions would make you feel comfortable and live yourself with the big grin on your face. That is you can make it! Oh Yes you can!
So stay positive. Be optimistic. Just go with the flow of life and try to the rollercoaster ticket which you are available to ride upon. It makes sense. It's just did.
So for now, I am okay now. I am trying to reconcile the memories that it happened in my life since I was just a tiny little monster before. And trying to forget the past where it just have supposed to. But I think it would probably be able to happen in amnesia. But just don't forget about it. Just reconcile. And exile the oh-so-what-the bad memoirs which it just paroxysm you. Just erase it. Erase in epoch. Then there is no chagrin about that.
Let things happen in your life. Just refresh your mind. And restart again. Don't be afraid. Let it be. Life is so unpredictable. It's so mysterious. The future beholds the entire world would let it happen in time. In perfect time. Just believe up there that things will be better. We are guided and blessed. Wink! :)
And then, I can hear it again.
"..and I am sooo one hundred and one percent luckier than you are."
Very well said. Very well. Whew! I nearly killed it. My other side really speaks to me a lot. It's way better than before. And I can't signing out of it, I can't. It's just that I don't know how to deal with it but from time to time it makes dexterous. (Sounds really weird. Oh I'm starting to be psychotic. Scared.)
Hallucinations? Yep, it can be. But don't judge me if I have sometimes acting really weird about this time guys. Oh c'mon give me break! I just need a strength. To go up on my bed and walk downstairs and sit on a computer table and it just sounds like click-click-click.
Talking about myself. I really know how to figure it out. It's just my therapy. I need to focus all about myself. Just give some credits to yourself okay?
It sounds really weird but, try to talk to yourself in front of the mirror. Talk to yourself. Take some questions about yourself. And answer it honestly and faithfully. Then, don't forget to exhale and inhale properly when you are doing that. Nevermind if you're opposed to. But based on the top psychological studies where I research on the internet, it really makes you feel better (eventhough it's acting really weirdo thingie.) But it really helps. Just try some. :)
It would affect to decrease the crazy people out there. Literally.
And this actions would make you feel comfortable and live yourself with the big grin on your face. That is you can make it! Oh Yes you can!
So stay positive. Be optimistic. Just go with the flow of life and try to the rollercoaster ticket which you are available to ride upon. It makes sense. It's just did.
So for now, I am okay now. I am trying to reconcile the memories that it happened in my life since I was just a tiny little monster before. And trying to forget the past where it just have supposed to. But I think it would probably be able to happen in amnesia. But just don't forget about it. Just reconcile. And exile the oh-so-what-the bad memoirs which it just paroxysm you. Just erase it. Erase in epoch. Then there is no chagrin about that.
Let things happen in your life. Just refresh your mind. And restart again. Don't be afraid. Let it be. Life is so unpredictable. It's so mysterious. The future beholds the entire world would let it happen in time. In perfect time. Just believe up there that things will be better. We are guided and blessed. Wink! :)
And then, I can hear it again.
"..and I am sooo one hundred and one percent luckier than you are."
Friday, February 27, 2009
All is Allright
I know I can do much better about this.
Thank you guys for cheering me up.
I'm trying to fix things up. And I know I can make it. I know.
I just found out that I need a therapy.
Hoping everything's get back to normal.
Hella' damn that I can't hold it back.
But once and for all that I need to look forward and move on.
Something's good to do. Something's right.
And I know that I need something for better understandings.
What's like to be something? :)
Whew. Confuses me at all.
Currently finding my shadow on the dark if it is possible.
Yes, I guess it is possible. Won't it be possible?
All I know is that I felt exclusively naive. Apoptosis.
And I guess it will be allright. Take time. Need an epoch.
Thanks fellas for reading my voluntary pulsing-typewritten.
Then, it would be keeps getting better. La-la-la.
To be continued. At the same time.
I am really sorry.
Thank you guys for cheering me up.
I'm trying to fix things up. And I know I can make it. I know.
I just found out that I need a therapy.
Hoping everything's get back to normal.
Hella' damn that I can't hold it back.
But once and for all that I need to look forward and move on.
Something's good to do. Something's right.
And I know that I need something for better understandings.
What's like to be something? :)
Whew. Confuses me at all.
Currently finding my shadow on the dark if it is possible.
Yes, I guess it is possible. Won't it be possible?
All I know is that I felt exclusively naive. Apoptosis.
And I guess it will be allright. Take time. Need an epoch.
Thanks fellas for reading my voluntary pulsing-typewritten.
Then, it would be keeps getting better. La-la-la.
To be continued. At the same time.
I am really sorry.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Never Say Goodbyes
Since it is my 20th posts in this world of blogienomephilism.
There's nothing to celebrate. N-O-T-H-I-N-G..
I feel so depressed lately. It seems that my life is useless. I'm so unproductive. My mind having some hallucinations and catastrophe that I don't even understand. My quizzes in my subjects this past few days are sooo low or even pasang-awa lang. I am such a loser. I can't study. I don't even try to study. I'm in nothingness. I felt tired to go to school. I'm so clumsy. I don't have enough energy to work in our laboratory. I'm tired of everything. Almost everything. I'm in vain of having procrastination. I'm in deep grief. And so be it.
Then, I realized that a "morning-sickness" makes me pisses off. I kept on whining. I am really depressed. So tired of weeping and weeping that what's like my sclera would fall off. I can't groan into it. I'm really such a damn fat loser! I tried to hide this feelings like a usual me. And deep inside that the preload behind my heartbeats makes me feel uncomfortable that I guess it would burst off. I tried to hide it from everyone. And I guess nobody cares. I can't talk to them about my problem so I guess I should prefer to write on this blog before my body would feel a hypoxia and suffocate myself when it's too late. Oh pity me.
As a child, there were times that I didn't get it but it kept me inline. You always there for me. Because you love me. Unconditional love that I can't actually return it now with an instant. You are my hero. My savior. My inspiration. And I just can't forget you no matter what. You grew me up with your genuine and selfless desire. Desire to make it happen. To make it will. To follow with thyself what it's like to believe in. To be congruent with my heart and my mind before making a decision that it makes me independent. To be mature and being immature for good. You makes me smile with no reason. You were there in times that I felt alone. You made me feel naive. In the sense that, to be a good and responsible mortal one. You are just one of a kind.
And it makes me weep. Oh deeply weeps.
I will never forget that you were there when I graduated my preliminary and elementary days. You were there when I had my first dental check-up. You were also there when I joined some contests that I didn't won and you tell to me that you were so proud of me (sigh). You were there to teach me how to pray the rosary. You were there to buy me crayons that I want it so bad. You were there to bought me a cake when I had my birthday celebrations. You were there when I need a guidance coming from God. You were there to fight for me. You were there when I had my first communion, confirmation and the sacrament of penance. You believe me that there were tooth fairy. You were there when I had my ulcer problems. You were there to make me comfortable in times that I'm having a nervous breakdown for my personal preferences. You were there to hear my problems. You were there to support me. To lighten things up. To cheer me up. To buy me an ice cream so that I'll stop crying. Then I'll stop whining. You stodged me with a happy laughter of fun and enjoyable moments that we had. You strudged me to begin in a right path. And it makes me enthusiast. You reminded me to finish my meals. You were there in times that I felt sad. You were always there.
And I miss you. I missing the times before.
Before that I never fall inlove. What it makes to be inlove?
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes. It's something more than saying "I miss you". You taught me to say an alphabet. And new learnings. Reminded me to wash my hands before eating and do not speak when my mouth is full. Taught me to respect everyone but always be guided by do not talk to strangers. You helped me with my projects and work stuffs. You support me for what I believe to. From what is good and what is evil. To appreciate little things. You made me feel important. In times, I had an animosity with my 'rents you were also there. To fix things up. You are my angel. You are my idol. And need to be extol from it. From within. You made me strong. You guided me in everything and not to forget that I should be always keep my feet on the ground. You bought me a chocolate. A big red baloon. And a cotton candy which makes my sibs in jealously. So petty. :')
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done. And you never got to see me back at number one. I wish that you were here to celebrate together. I wish that we could spend the holidays together.
I know that you suffered a lot. And I am really really really sorry that I am not there to be with you in times that you need my help. Sorry grandma, I can't hold it back. I am sorry that there was a barrier between us. A barrier that I can't actually restrain from it. I can't resolve from it. And I can't even don't know how to balance it. Been busy with my job. To be a student. To be a succesful someday. Will you wait for me? I know that you are in deep pain. And I'm so sorry to say that. I knew that you waited me. Waiting and wishing that we will see each other soon, that you are still strong and having a capacity to know me. You waited for two and a half years, that it seems that two more year and a half I can be a successful and reaching to my goals and dreams. I perceive that you are the number one who will be sooo proud of me and sooo happy to see me. But then again. I guess, you'd suffered a lot. You're tired of waiting for me to come back. You can't take it anymore and you need a sleep so that you will have an ATP to see me. I know that you were happy now and still cheer me up in times that I'd lost. And I love you to do that. I know that you felt grimaced. To be there for Him. To be with Him. And to be like Him. I am also proud of you and happy for you. Will you say hi for me? Promise me to be there for me? I really missed you and I will cherish the quondam memoirs when I'm with you. I love you.
And I smelled your breath. That it makes me cry.
Tomorrow I'll be going back home. And we will see each other.
This will be the last. And it will never say goodbye.
There's nothing to celebrate. N-O-T-H-I-N-G..
I feel so depressed lately. It seems that my life is useless. I'm so unproductive. My mind having some hallucinations and catastrophe that I don't even understand. My quizzes in my subjects this past few days are sooo low or even pasang-awa lang. I am such a loser. I can't study. I don't even try to study. I'm in nothingness. I felt tired to go to school. I'm so clumsy. I don't have enough energy to work in our laboratory. I'm tired of everything. Almost everything. I'm in vain of having procrastination. I'm in deep grief. And so be it.
Then, I realized that a "morning-sickness" makes me pisses off. I kept on whining. I am really depressed. So tired of weeping and weeping that what's like my sclera would fall off. I can't groan into it. I'm really such a damn fat loser! I tried to hide this feelings like a usual me. And deep inside that the preload behind my heartbeats makes me feel uncomfortable that I guess it would burst off. I tried to hide it from everyone. And I guess nobody cares. I can't talk to them about my problem so I guess I should prefer to write on this blog before my body would feel a hypoxia and suffocate myself when it's too late. Oh pity me.
As a child, there were times that I didn't get it but it kept me inline. You always there for me. Because you love me. Unconditional love that I can't actually return it now with an instant. You are my hero. My savior. My inspiration. And I just can't forget you no matter what. You grew me up with your genuine and selfless desire. Desire to make it happen. To make it will. To follow with thyself what it's like to believe in. To be congruent with my heart and my mind before making a decision that it makes me independent. To be mature and being immature for good. You makes me smile with no reason. You were there in times that I felt alone. You made me feel naive. In the sense that, to be a good and responsible mortal one. You are just one of a kind.
And it makes me weep. Oh deeply weeps.
I will never forget that you were there when I graduated my preliminary and elementary days. You were there when I had my first dental check-up. You were also there when I joined some contests that I didn't won and you tell to me that you were so proud of me (sigh). You were there to teach me how to pray the rosary. You were there to buy me crayons that I want it so bad. You were there to bought me a cake when I had my birthday celebrations. You were there when I need a guidance coming from God. You were there to fight for me. You were there when I had my first communion, confirmation and the sacrament of penance. You believe me that there were tooth fairy. You were there when I had my ulcer problems. You were there to make me comfortable in times that I'm having a nervous breakdown for my personal preferences. You were there to hear my problems. You were there to support me. To lighten things up. To cheer me up. To buy me an ice cream so that I'll stop crying. Then I'll stop whining. You stodged me with a happy laughter of fun and enjoyable moments that we had. You strudged me to begin in a right path. And it makes me enthusiast. You reminded me to finish my meals. You were there in times that I felt sad. You were always there.
And I miss you. I missing the times before.
Before that I never fall inlove. What it makes to be inlove?
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes. It's something more than saying "I miss you". You taught me to say an alphabet. And new learnings. Reminded me to wash my hands before eating and do not speak when my mouth is full. Taught me to respect everyone but always be guided by do not talk to strangers. You helped me with my projects and work stuffs. You support me for what I believe to. From what is good and what is evil. To appreciate little things. You made me feel important. In times, I had an animosity with my 'rents you were also there. To fix things up. You are my angel. You are my idol. And need to be extol from it. From within. You made me strong. You guided me in everything and not to forget that I should be always keep my feet on the ground. You bought me a chocolate. A big red baloon. And a cotton candy which makes my sibs in jealously. So petty. :')
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done. And you never got to see me back at number one. I wish that you were here to celebrate together. I wish that we could spend the holidays together.
I know that you suffered a lot. And I am really really really sorry that I am not there to be with you in times that you need my help. Sorry grandma, I can't hold it back. I am sorry that there was a barrier between us. A barrier that I can't actually restrain from it. I can't resolve from it. And I can't even don't know how to balance it. Been busy with my job. To be a student. To be a succesful someday. Will you wait for me? I know that you are in deep pain. And I'm so sorry to say that. I knew that you waited me. Waiting and wishing that we will see each other soon, that you are still strong and having a capacity to know me. You waited for two and a half years, that it seems that two more year and a half I can be a successful and reaching to my goals and dreams. I perceive that you are the number one who will be sooo proud of me and sooo happy to see me. But then again. I guess, you'd suffered a lot. You're tired of waiting for me to come back. You can't take it anymore and you need a sleep so that you will have an ATP to see me. I know that you were happy now and still cheer me up in times that I'd lost. And I love you to do that. I know that you felt grimaced. To be there for Him. To be with Him. And to be like Him. I am also proud of you and happy for you. Will you say hi for me? Promise me to be there for me? I really missed you and I will cherish the quondam memoirs when I'm with you. I love you.
And I smelled your breath. That it makes me cry.
Tomorrow I'll be going back home. And we will see each other.
This will be the last. And it will never say goodbye.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Big Grin!
Aww. Just nothing. I would like to write a blogspot just for something.
Well, I am just happy because solong-solo ko ang computer. No more disturbances. :)
My sister have her exams this week and also my brother too. So, the endpoint is. I am free! Jealousy much sibs! Free for this week dude! University Week tomorrow! And we have no classes (regularly) and I just have to enjoy with it and have some fun before it would ends. Then, back to busyness again next week for the preparation in the finals.
And summer! Here I come. Hee-hee. :))
Well, I am just happy because solong-solo ko ang computer. No more disturbances. :)
My sister have her exams this week and also my brother too. So, the endpoint is. I am free! Jealousy much sibs! Free for this week dude! University Week tomorrow! And we have no classes (regularly) and I just have to enjoy with it and have some fun before it would ends. Then, back to busyness again next week for the preparation in the finals.
And summer! Here I come. Hee-hee. :))
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Fashion Statement
This is what I like.
On the first picture: the Top Hat. Houndstooth Waistcoat. Pink Socks. And a cute Buckle Shoes.
On the second picture: the Fedora. Wayferer of Ray Ban. Wool Cardigan. Long Stripes Shirt. Skinny Black Jeans. And an Old School Black Leather Shoes. :)
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Easy for you to say.
Gasp. So hella tired. I'd woke up early in the morning just to finish some appointments that were entitled this day. I used to procrastinate this things up. But then, I realized that I need to change this kinda-like old routine. Since my 'rents used to call me "always-in-a-rush", it didn't irritated me at all. But when I kinda growing up, and a little bit more mature?! I realized that I need to change my attitude since I'll not be in a minor mode someday. And it's been a new year for me to change my preferences of my attitude status at all. Sounds good to me. Specious.
Anyways, back to the appointment. I have a dental check-up with my dentist that I need to go back and forth for visit. I need to finish my braces-years since all I want now is having a retainer and not having a braces. My teeth aches and this kinda like aluminum wires always irritates my gums and beginning to form singaw. It hurts but I'm used to it. And since my dentist is in Roxas, I need to go there early in the morning to catch up the appointment that is scheduled for me. Long hours of travelling since I've been living here currently in Iloilo. So crux for me to do that. But as a mature teenager (naks!) I need to finish this task that was assigned to me. And it's for my own good and will. HAHAHA:]] I have to be responsible enough and finished my obligations to pursue the eternal life. (Exagge eh noh?) Toinks! :))
Anyways, back to the appointment. I have a dental check-up with my dentist that I need to go back and forth for visit. I need to finish my braces-years since all I want now is having a retainer and not having a braces. My teeth aches and this kinda like aluminum wires always irritates my gums and beginning to form singaw. It hurts but I'm used to it. And since my dentist is in Roxas, I need to go there early in the morning to catch up the appointment that is scheduled for me. Long hours of travelling since I've been living here currently in Iloilo. So crux for me to do that. But as a mature teenager (naks!) I need to finish this task that was assigned to me. And it's for my own good and will. HAHAHA:]] I have to be responsible enough and finished my obligations to pursue the eternal life. (Exagge eh noh?) Toinks! :))
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tapakmasid
Ulinigan ng mga pirapirasong tansan. Mayroong plastik at latang hawak. Patuloy na naglakad. At lumakad.
May naghihiyawan. At kaba'y naramdaman. Nasilayan ang pangungulag sa lapag ng luntiang putik. Patuloy na humiyaw. At awa ang naramdaman.
Naghabulan. Nagkantyawan. Naglalaro ng cara y cruz sa daanan. May natalo. May nanalo. Tuloy sa paglakad.
Usok ng mga bigong pangarap. Bawat hithit ay masaklap na karanasan. Bawat singhot ay lutang sa murang isip na pilit na iniintindi ang kamalasan. Kaawaawa. Nagkakaintindihan. Nagsusuyuan ng mundong litaw sa kabalintunaan. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Hibi ng isang musmos. Naghahanap ng isang uyayi. Ng masisilayan. Nagbabasakaling maginhawaan. Umaasa. Ayaw kumubli sa katotohanan. Bawat luha ay galili sa isang munting pangarap. Nagkukubli. Umiiwas.
Barya-baryang hapit sa galas. Nagsusumamo. Musika'y bulag sa nota. Sigaw buhat sa dibdib. Masakit. Mabigat. Umaasam. Dalisay makakita. Pirme apura.
Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Daanang wari'y silakbo sa dahas at purong galugad. Dilim na may patutunguhan. May patutunguhan.
Malamig ang bawat biyak ng mga bato. Ramdam ang pag-uusisa. Usisa ng kawalan ng dangal. Dangal na may dignidad. Respeto ng bawat isa. Pantay-pantay. Wala na.
May naghihimagsik. Baliw sa katotohanan. Kulang na ekidad. Kumikuwestiyon sa tunay na tugon. Walang nakarinig. Walang umalingawngaw. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Nalipasan ang mga maririkit na tagumpay. Balat ay kulubot na. Nakalimutan. Napagsawaan ng mga panahong kay rahas. Hanap ay dunong. Maiwastong kamalian. Kung may maibabalik pa. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Kung makakapagsalita lamang ang istatwa. Istatwang nagsilbing tagapagligtas sa mga kasalanan. Kasalanang hindi ginawa. Sinagip ang mga walang utang na loob. Mga makapangyarihan. Puro poot ang mga kasamaang ikinasaya ng apoy hapit sa sakit. Lurayluray na mga kandarapa.
Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Malapit na. Mararating na din sa wakas ang dapat paroonan. May naghihintay. Sabik. Kanaw sa liwanag. Patuloy humahagilap. May maiuuwian pa. Mayroon pa. Malapit na.
Umakyat sa nayong kay taas. Umaalingasaw ang tapon-tapon na basura. Pasensya na. Disenteng tiraha'y wala na. Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Umaapura sa mundong kinagagalawan. Wala na ang araw. Natabunan. Nakudyapi. Napagpintasan ng kinasusuklaman. Ang kadiliman.
Ramdam ay nginig. Hapit sa buto ang sakit. Sakali'y gutom ang bunga. Sinanay na. Waring naninibugho sa katas ng buhay. Itinawag ang pangalan na minsa'y minahal ako. Ngayo'y limot na sa katotohanang tunay na paksa. Ang katiwasayan. Ang pananabik.
Patuloy ang pagsigaw. Sumigaw. At isinigaw.
Nagtatanong sa isip na walang nakakaalam. Nasaan na siya? Nasaan ang aking hinahanap? Ang aking ikinasama ng buong buhay simula'y musmos pa. Daing ko'y iyong tugunan. Hinahanap kita. Nasasabik sa iyo. Nagsusumamo. Hanap ay ang pagmamahal. Hanap ay pag-asa.
Natanaw ko siya sa isang katreng puno ng alikabok at agiw. Madilim. Malamig. Pinuntahan ko siya. Saba'y sabing ako'y nandito na. Tahimik. Walang tugon. Walang pahayag. Walang bigkas. Kahit isang letra. Patuloy sa pagsabing ako'y nandito na. Umimik. Malungkot. Blangko. Hindi nagsalita. Hinawakan ko siya. Isang malamig na mga kamay. Lamig na walang konting init ang nananalaytay. Wala na ang aking inabutan. Buhat sa kasarimlan na patuloy naghahaluyhoy. Wala na pala siya. Iniwan. Isinugal. Iniyakan. Wala na siya. Wala na.
Isang hiyaw na galit ang nagmula sa kalangitan. Kumulog.
At biglang umulan...
May naghihiyawan. At kaba'y naramdaman. Nasilayan ang pangungulag sa lapag ng luntiang putik. Patuloy na humiyaw. At awa ang naramdaman.
Naghabulan. Nagkantyawan. Naglalaro ng cara y cruz sa daanan. May natalo. May nanalo. Tuloy sa paglakad.
Usok ng mga bigong pangarap. Bawat hithit ay masaklap na karanasan. Bawat singhot ay lutang sa murang isip na pilit na iniintindi ang kamalasan. Kaawaawa. Nagkakaintindihan. Nagsusuyuan ng mundong litaw sa kabalintunaan. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Hibi ng isang musmos. Naghahanap ng isang uyayi. Ng masisilayan. Nagbabasakaling maginhawaan. Umaasa. Ayaw kumubli sa katotohanan. Bawat luha ay galili sa isang munting pangarap. Nagkukubli. Umiiwas.
Barya-baryang hapit sa galas. Nagsusumamo. Musika'y bulag sa nota. Sigaw buhat sa dibdib. Masakit. Mabigat. Umaasam. Dalisay makakita. Pirme apura.
Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Daanang wari'y silakbo sa dahas at purong galugad. Dilim na may patutunguhan. May patutunguhan.
Malamig ang bawat biyak ng mga bato. Ramdam ang pag-uusisa. Usisa ng kawalan ng dangal. Dangal na may dignidad. Respeto ng bawat isa. Pantay-pantay. Wala na.
May naghihimagsik. Baliw sa katotohanan. Kulang na ekidad. Kumikuwestiyon sa tunay na tugon. Walang nakarinig. Walang umalingawngaw. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Nalipasan ang mga maririkit na tagumpay. Balat ay kulubot na. Nakalimutan. Napagsawaan ng mga panahong kay rahas. Hanap ay dunong. Maiwastong kamalian. Kung may maibabalik pa. Patuloy sa paglakad.
Kung makakapagsalita lamang ang istatwa. Istatwang nagsilbing tagapagligtas sa mga kasalanan. Kasalanang hindi ginawa. Sinagip ang mga walang utang na loob. Mga makapangyarihan. Puro poot ang mga kasamaang ikinasaya ng apoy hapit sa sakit. Lurayluray na mga kandarapa.
Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Malapit na. Mararating na din sa wakas ang dapat paroonan. May naghihintay. Sabik. Kanaw sa liwanag. Patuloy humahagilap. May maiuuwian pa. Mayroon pa. Malapit na.
Umakyat sa nayong kay taas. Umaalingasaw ang tapon-tapon na basura. Pasensya na. Disenteng tiraha'y wala na. Patuloy pa rin sa paglakad. Umaapura sa mundong kinagagalawan. Wala na ang araw. Natabunan. Nakudyapi. Napagpintasan ng kinasusuklaman. Ang kadiliman.
Ramdam ay nginig. Hapit sa buto ang sakit. Sakali'y gutom ang bunga. Sinanay na. Waring naninibugho sa katas ng buhay. Itinawag ang pangalan na minsa'y minahal ako. Ngayo'y limot na sa katotohanang tunay na paksa. Ang katiwasayan. Ang pananabik.
Patuloy ang pagsigaw. Sumigaw. At isinigaw.
Nagtatanong sa isip na walang nakakaalam. Nasaan na siya? Nasaan ang aking hinahanap? Ang aking ikinasama ng buong buhay simula'y musmos pa. Daing ko'y iyong tugunan. Hinahanap kita. Nasasabik sa iyo. Nagsusumamo. Hanap ay ang pagmamahal. Hanap ay pag-asa.
Natanaw ko siya sa isang katreng puno ng alikabok at agiw. Madilim. Malamig. Pinuntahan ko siya. Saba'y sabing ako'y nandito na. Tahimik. Walang tugon. Walang pahayag. Walang bigkas. Kahit isang letra. Patuloy sa pagsabing ako'y nandito na. Umimik. Malungkot. Blangko. Hindi nagsalita. Hinawakan ko siya. Isang malamig na mga kamay. Lamig na walang konting init ang nananalaytay. Wala na ang aking inabutan. Buhat sa kasarimlan na patuloy naghahaluyhoy. Wala na pala siya. Iniwan. Isinugal. Iniyakan. Wala na siya. Wala na.
Isang hiyaw na galit ang nagmula sa kalangitan. Kumulog.
At biglang umulan...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Big Things, Big Things
So there you go, my fifteenth posts is so much more to say.
It can't concur with throughout of my head what it's like to be the exact word of how was it going for my dumb life this past few days/weeks. Honestly, there is so much more errands to do and to finish and a deadline to come. And I can't groan. No more freedom to groan. :(
What's the big deal?
The big thing is, I finished all my reports in my courses/subjects! Yey me! Except for my theology report. (but I am not a reporter in our group?!) No more icky-breaky-shakey in front of audiences or even in a crowd! Yikes. Honestly, I have a stern-reporting-in-front-issues and I just have to restrain it before it would burst! HAHAHA:]]
The big thing is, I enjoyed a lot during our rehearsals, practice, steppings, funny moments, punchline absurd moments, going to the friend's houses/apartments to practice, going to our houses superrr late, going to school superrr late, playing the.. (I forgot what is the name of the game that we play on my friend's loptop. It was so much addicting like my favorite drug. La-la-la.), and most of all EAT! SLEEP! and REST (Oh yes. Need more infinite chakras to gain before my body throbbed!) Even, I don't have enough baon because of the paucity preferences but I still need to eat. To feel the adrenaline rush babyy! :)))
And the big thing is, I enjoyed a lot with my friends this past few days and weeks that we shared a lot of bonding moments. (Currently, I'm posting a lot of pictures and videos in my accounts. Super delayed posts. Sorry!)
I missed those days. Sigh. A remnant of my experiences indeed. Thanks guys to enthusiast my boring life in this entire world. And I don't know how to fit in. Just continue to trudge along the road and never look back because it would make you animosity in times that you have to forget that it deserves to be forgotten. Straightforward. Cheer up!
Guided by the most author and the most director of the show.
Just need to extol from it. Kuddos! :))
It can't concur with throughout of my head what it's like to be the exact word of how was it going for my dumb life this past few days/weeks. Honestly, there is so much more errands to do and to finish and a deadline to come. And I can't groan. No more freedom to groan. :(
What's the big deal?
The big thing is, I finished all my reports in my courses/subjects! Yey me! Except for my theology report. (but I am not a reporter in our group?!) No more icky-breaky-shakey in front of audiences or even in a crowd! Yikes. Honestly, I have a stern-reporting-in-front-issues and I just have to restrain it before it would burst! HAHAHA:]]
The big thing is, I enjoyed a lot during our rehearsals, practice, steppings, funny moments, punchline absurd moments, going to the friend's houses/apartments to practice, going to our houses superrr late, going to school superrr late, playing the.. (I forgot what is the name of the game that we play on my friend's loptop. It was so much addicting like my favorite drug. La-la-la.), and most of all EAT! SLEEP! and REST (Oh yes. Need more infinite chakras to gain before my body throbbed!) Even, I don't have enough baon because of the paucity preferences but I still need to eat. To feel the adrenaline rush babyy! :)))
And the big thing is, I enjoyed a lot with my friends this past few days and weeks that we shared a lot of bonding moments. (Currently, I'm posting a lot of pictures and videos in my accounts. Super delayed posts. Sorry!)
I missed those days. Sigh. A remnant of my experiences indeed. Thanks guys to enthusiast my boring life in this entire world. And I don't know how to fit in. Just continue to trudge along the road and never look back because it would make you animosity in times that you have to forget that it deserves to be forgotten. Straightforward. Cheer up!
Guided by the most author and the most director of the show.
Just need to extol from it. Kuddos! :))
Friday, January 16, 2009
Wannabe Famous?
When I asked my little cousin whose age is just a 4 years old, "what do you want to be when you grow up?". And she said to me, "I want to be famous!" I was dismayed. She wants to be famous it's like a superstarrr! And by then, I realized something.
Something that crossed my mind.
Nowadays, it's like a crystal ball in our generation that always glows up when something happens and always telling something new and being more updated about what's happening now.
Nowadays, technology get more progressive like an instant. And mass media becomes more irrevocable and more open to something defensive issues which it should remain wholesome.
Nowadays, people get different objectively but remains the same subjectively.
And nowadays, the earth continues to complete its mission to pass through the rings of solar system from time to time and spinning and spinning all the time. No rest, no stop and no trial. It is static. It should be static. We can't control it nor stop it. Do you?
So, here you go guys. I searched this pictures on the internet like last night and I was *not actually dismayed nor get too excited, but something that bugs me to know and understand how celebrity personalities would like it to be famous or what?
Something that crossed my mind.
Nowadays, it's like a crystal ball in our generation that always glows up when something happens and always telling something new and being more updated about what's happening now.
Nowadays, technology get more progressive like an instant. And mass media becomes more irrevocable and more open to something defensive issues which it should remain wholesome.
Nowadays, people get different objectively but remains the same subjectively.
And nowadays, the earth continues to complete its mission to pass through the rings of solar system from time to time and spinning and spinning all the time. No rest, no stop and no trial. It is static. It should be static. We can't control it nor stop it. Do you?
So, here you go guys. I searched this pictures on the internet like last night and I was *not actually dismayed nor get too excited, but something that bugs me to know and understand how celebrity personalities would like it to be famous or what?
And so, this three pictures of umuusbong-personalities have "wannabe famous superstar" in my own opinion. And as I said, they really have a looks, talents, charisma and brains? personalities? or characters? hmm. This three young ladies have a pinoy blood but neither of them are born here in the Philippines nor grew up in here. Always half-half, one fourth, one third. Whateva.
Nicole Anderson, whose pasikat pa lamang. Have her own role in the new Disney series which it called JONAS that the main characters on the center of the spotlight are the JoBros. She is playing as the biggest fan of the three famous brothers like a number one fan as Marcy.
Mellisa Reyes, whose sumisikat pa lamang. Giving her a break in a music world and having an album this year. She's an artist and really loves to sing and dance. Actually, she was the first runner up in a reality series which "Search for the Next Doll" this late 2007.
And Vanessa Hudgens, whose sikat na sikat na. Wait, have you seen her in a high school musical? Okaaay, no doubt about it. I know you know her. Period. Lol. :)))
Maybe, I want to be on a spotlight someday. I mean different spotlight. Specious, isn't?
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Rin on the Rox
"So hope you guys, Love it. Like it. Hate it. Whatever. Just annoy it?!"
OMG! I love them both! Newest youtube sensation on this year 2009! It makes me woah! La-la-la-love them how they sing. Very Very Very nice voice. Indeed! This video had a views on youtube about a million! Eventhough it was posted last year. But who cares? They are sooo good! Oh yes, just check this out. Their original acct. on youtube: hiphoprox. And check their other videos which it was stunning. Really guys! :)))
*trivia, did you know that they are both pinay? Oh yes! Proud to be a Pinoy dude! Hopefully this year they are giving a chances to notice and have a break, have a kitkat. Kidding. :)) I love them!!! Taob na si Charice Pempengcooww. Lol.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Happy Days
So tomorrow is back to school people! Back to our old days skilled routine living. Oh yeah! No more non-stop watching television, Busy chit-chating with my former chatmates (*go for the goal! HAHAHA:]]), eat-sleep-eat-sleep work. And a nocturnal happy days that I was just like a vampire surfing the internet until four in the morning. So, how was that? Gosh, hopefully I can limit that infatuation feeling this past few days. Or should I say, control it! *Go for the goal.
Sorry guys, I'm not in a nomad mode this sembreak. :))
Honestly, I'm not prepare for tomorrow. Absolutely! Gosh. Procrastinate is the right word for me to fix this stuffs. Adrenaline rush for tomorrow babyyy. Being busy again. Goodbye happy days. Goodbye! :((
Sorry guys, I'm not in a nomad mode this sembreak. :))
Honestly, I'm not prepare for tomorrow. Absolutely! Gosh. Procrastinate is the right word for me to fix this stuffs. Adrenaline rush for tomorrow babyyy. Being busy again. Goodbye happy days. Goodbye! :((
Friday, January 2, 2009
Sycophant w/ Care
Err. What's wrong with our connection? It really pisses me off. Always disconnect. Then disconnect. And disconnect. Ampf. It started on new year's eve and right now again and again disconnecting time is always present. Ampf. What on earth is happening on our broadband? Oh sweet nibblets! :(
Anyways, today is friday and two more days to go then tapos na ang maliligayang araw mo. Gosh, back to school now! (Eventhough I am not yet superduper as in major ready.)
Dang! I'm looking forward for what is in store for me this year of the ox. They say that the year of the sheep will having a bad luck this year. So, what? I really don't care about that. For me, I don't believe about prediction with the lighted-crystal-ball stuffs and anything-images-cards are sooo true. Duh, guidance whatever.
It's really cold. Is it?
I love cold weather. Me likey likey to sleep. I'm just sycophant about cold. It makes me brrrr. I mean shiverrr. :)))
My agenda about this day is all about a "caring day". HAHA:]
~> I went to ----- center care to fix our video camcorder.
~> Bonding with my mom.
~> Allowing my brother to borrow my money.
~> Bonding with my sis.
~> Sending our picture moments to my dad.
Oh so good to me. Hope I can do better *cross fingers.*
Anyways, today is friday and two more days to go then tapos na ang maliligayang araw mo. Gosh, back to school now! (Eventhough I am not yet superduper as in major ready.)
Dang! I'm looking forward for what is in store for me this year of the ox. They say that the year of the sheep will having a bad luck this year. So, what? I really don't care about that. For me, I don't believe about prediction with the lighted-crystal-ball stuffs and anything-images-cards are sooo true. Duh, guidance whatever.
It's really cold. Is it?
I love cold weather. Me likey likey to sleep. I'm just sycophant about cold. It makes me brrrr. I mean shiverrr. :)))
My agenda about this day is all about a "caring day". HAHA:]
~> I went to ----- center care to fix our video camcorder.
~> Bonding with my mom.
~> Allowing my brother to borrow my money.
~> Bonding with my sis.
~> Sending our picture moments to my dad.
Oh so good to me. Hope I can do better *cross fingers.*
Thursday, January 1, 2009
PCD Rockin' Eve
Oh geez. They are sizzling hot this time/everytime they perform. I love them a lot! The Pussycat Dolls are performing some of their most anticipated songs in the album of Doll Domination in New Year's Rocking Eve 2008 hosted by Ryan Seacrest.
Once again, happy new year guys! :)
I Hate This Part
When I Grow Up
Bottle Pop
Once again, happy new year guys! :)
When I Grow Up
Bottle Pop
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